How it all Started: ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!

It all started in the famous 2020 year. I had just recently given birth to my first-born daughter, the lockdowns started and the adjustment to motherhood was hitting me HARD. Just when I thought it couldn't possibly get worse, I found out I was pregnant AGAIN. I was terrified, angry, sad, yet happy. Needless to say, I was not the most exciting person to be around. Every day seemed like it was getting worse, and of course, the more I recited how "awful" my life was, the worse it became. Then one day, a certain type of unexplained awareness flashed me in the eyes. At this point, my fuse was so short it almost seemed nonexistent. I had just gotten done yelling at my now almost 15-month-old toddler. She was crying, I was crying; I went into the bathroom, looked at myself in the mirror and said, "enough is enough!  She is depending on you to be better. Your son is going to be here soon, and he will also need you. They desire to have the best mom you could possibly be.". I wiped my tears and went back out to my sweet Babygirl, picked her up and smothered her in hugs and kisses, repeating over and over again how sorry I was.

 After that, I got myself on a waitlist for Psychotherapy and began researching my own tools I could use to help myself in the meantime; first yoga, then breathwork and journaling. I honestly can't even tell you how many times I scrolled past Hypnosis, giving it no attention at all. With the work I was doing, everything started to get a little better, I had started CBT with a counselor, there was a shift. But I was still so angry all the time, everything triggered me, and my preexisting fear of fires had increased tremendously.

Then one night, while mindlessly scrolling through TikTok, I came across Delores Cannon... I was so intrigued. I immediately became so hyper-fixated on her work, her books and YouTube talks, and began saving up for my first QHHT session. The night before my session, I was sitting on the couch with my phone open, and before I knew it, I was typing... "Schools for hypnosis"... then BOOM there was Hypnosis Motivation Institute (HMI) , nationally accredited (Financial aid eligible was necessary because of being a stay-at-home mom with limited income), and again, before I knew it, I was applying from my phone. It just felt right, intuitively. I went to my session the next day and I was so excited! QHHT is similar to hypnotherapy, but with a more metaphysical touch and main emphasis on past life regression. So, the professional put me under, and I was so confused. I didn't feel "hypnotized". I was consciously aware; I knew she wouldn't be able to make me bark like a dog or cluck like a chicken. I just felt relaxed, I didn't want to get up because I was so relaxed and calm... It had been so long since I've felt this way. After my journey, I came out and what had felt like 8 hours, was only 1 hour. I felt like I just had a full night's sleep, rested, energized, and so powerful!

The next day, I went to do some laundry and as I was pulling the clothes out of the dryer, it hit me. The dryer was a major trigger for my fear of fires, I would compulsively check it throughout the cycle to be sure it wasn't getting too hot to catch fire. I didn't check it at ALL! Emotionally, I was more stable all around.  Fast-forward to today, 5 years later, my fear of fires has not returned. I have also completed not one, but two years at HMI. I came out of school as a Certified Clinical Hypnotherapist with my own business. My journey through HMI is an entirely different blog all on its own, but I have found myself and my passion. I now get to help others on their own journey. 

 I’ve learned and have grown so much since I finally made the choice of saying “enough is enough”. I hit my threshold, causing me to make the choice to drive the change I wanted. Now, that doesn’t mean that I am now a “perfect” human that does not experience any negativity, absolutely NOT, I am still HUMAN!! It also doesn’t mean that all of my inner-work is completely finished. HOWEVER, it does mean that now every day I am conscious of the choices I have available to me. I am diligently mindful everyday of the choices I make and the thoughts that I choose or don’t choose to entertain.  So if you take anything away from this, it should be that change boils down to a choice. There comes a time when you will say “enough is enough” for yourself, for your situation, however that looks for you.  If you’re ready to take your first step, I’m more than willing to help you along however I can! 

much love,

-Karissa